Happiness is a warm gun..

Hey peeps. It's Sunday, and it's Mother's day. I spend the day with my family, and it was awesome. It started out rocky for me as usual, because i was acting like my usual irritated self, but luckily the company of my sister put me in better spirits.


Why am i so annoyed with people? i know i'm a moody bitch.. everyone knows it, but sometimes .. i swear i am capable of murder. and i keep thinking it's me, everyone says it is.. but you know what?? I THINK ITS THEM! maybe if everyone wasn't so goddamn irritating with their lack of originality, bad sense of humor and egotistical neurosis.. then just MAYBE, i wouldn’t feel the overwhelming urge to punch them all in the face!

I wish i could control my up-and-down, borderline bi polar outbreaks, but i don't think I can. I can fake it better now, but the inner judgment isn't stopping.
UGH.. i'm bored! i don’t care about your boyfriend's theory on the political situation in Darfur, i could give a FUCK about your ongoing 3 month long questioning of why you get slight cramps in your lower abdomen after you run , and please don't include me in your thought process when you're trying to decide which pair of underwear you should buy for your fat ass!
I know i know...these are normal conversations that people should have with one another, and not every dialogue can be riveting and ground shaking. I also realize that mundane, every day life type of things can and should be talked about.. but.... can they be talked about with someone else?

topics of conversation I appreciate:

- philosophical debates
- gossip
- sex
- travel stories
- any important life changes ( not " i think i'm going to try washing my clothes in cold water cycle instead of warm..and see how that goes")
- interesting life stories
- time worthy inputs (not.. "you know, smoking is bad for you?")
- books

topics i dont care about whatsover:

- everything else


I know im the one who sounds egotistic and neurotic now, but let's face it.. i'm allowed.

Some of you reading this now may have already started to revisit some of the conversations you've had with me and wonder if i was bored.. and well..if you're wondering.. then i probably was. So, let's toast to better conversations, or more importantly.. let's toast to the often intimidating, rarely appreciated, and hardly ever practiced... silence.